Risk loving

According to the investment psychology, a risk loving person willing to take risk when the expected return is low.  I think I will consider myself risk loving.

I found the scratch card in Holland was interesting because the design was always cute.  As a risk loving person, I liked playing it with you.   You never scratched those lottery cards before you knew me and you found that I was silly to try to get that lottery prize because the possibilities of winning was low.

One day, I received a mail from you.  It was the one month scratch card, the Christmas one.  Amazing, I loved it.   You told me we scratched it every night when we were doing the FaceTime chat.  How sweet you were to find that activity which we can do together.   Sometimes, I screamed for the luck to get two in a kind of image on the card.   You smiled and asked me softly "How many images we need more to win the smallest prize?"  I showed you the card and told you, we need one more image.   You had that gentle smile again and said "Ja ja.".   You never thought that we would win anything big.  It was fine with me because I enjoyed scratching it with you together.  

This scratch card was the count down calendar for my working holiday.   When the scratch card was used up, that was the time I can see you again.  I wanted to fly to you and squeeze into your arms;  lay on your chest to smell you and feel your heart beat; synchronize my heart beat with yours.  I wanted to scratch it all over in one time!  You were my prize.