One year

In love, there is no right and wrong but only if the timing is right or not.  I think maybe we met at a good time but it may not be the right time.  And everything between us grew so quick that you cannot keep up the speed while I ran too fast.  Flame was out so easily like flash.  I ever want to tight us back and you want to keep us close.  It seemed our aims are the same but indeed, our desires are difference.  

One year passed and I still cannot forget you.  Next month is your birthday; is that the reason why I think of you so much these days?  The happiness we had come back to my mind.  I cannot get rid of those memories.  

I thought that I know you so much but I found out that I never really know you.  It is not important if I understand and know you enough now because you are not here anymore.  There will be one day, I will forget you totally.

Time heals

You know I love to look up the sky finding those lovely clouds moving high above my head.  I love to close my eyes to enjoy the wind touching my face gently.   You told me that you were attracted by me for this action of looking up the sky.  Do you know that I did not enjoy this lovely moment since early last year?  I forgot how calm and quiet it was inside me when I was doing it.

There was one day, I closed my eyes and stood in the middle of the street having my head up to feel the wind, the sunshine and the peaceful environment.   I love the feeling; I missed that feeling.   I can feel the peace again.  Does that mean wound was healed?  Or just I have forgotten the pain?   Everyone say that time heals.  No matter if it is mental or physical scar, it can be healed one day.  

Forget or Forgive

It has been over eight months.  What is going on with me? I thought I was moving on quite well.  However, I still think of you sometimes; especially on this holiday.   Everyone tells me when I meet someone new, I will have no such feeling over you anymore.  Is that true?  I am not sure, maybe.

There was one night when I was alone at Tromso, I heard you called my name 'mama Tse'.  That made me felt so sad.  I cried.  I went some places that we didn't visited before.  And, I thought of you.     You promised me to bring me somewhere I can see snow.   You cannot keep this promise and I go and see my snow.  I saw it and it reminded you to me.   On my trip, I met a lot of people.  Couples, families, groups of pals, all of them reminded you to me.

I know I am silly to remember the old times, old memories.....is that really old?  Memeories back to eight months before?  Old?  Is that true that I have to forget/forgive you then I can move on well?  I dun know.  Maybe move on is 'To forget' more than 'To forgive'.