Mama's visit

Dear,

Your mother requested to visit us before I return home.  That was a task to me because I need to prepare tea, food and snacks for your parents.  I asked if they like Italian cheese cake.  You said your parents are picky on food and they do not eat cheese that was cooked inside a cake; so better let it be a secret.

Early that morning, we went to Albert Heijn for very thing we need for the tea gathering with your parents.  I made the Apple Crumble Cheese Cake, fingers chocolate and prepared the nuts and tea for their arrival.

Your parents arrived and mama looked around the house.  She put her fingers over the shelf and see if there was dust; and she sat on the sofa and touch this and touch that before I served the snacks and tea on the coffee table.  Your mother asked me about the receipt and I just smile and said nothing.   I worried about my performance on the day.  You comforted me and said that mama like those things I prepared for them and especially the cake; and you told me she likes me.  Wow, really?  I like her and your papa too!

loves you
SFT

2012 Christmas

Hoi,

Christmas of 2012 was an amazing one to me.   It was the first time I visited your parents.  Your parents are so kind and nice to prepare a lot of Christmas presents for me and the meal.  They are two elders and I received more than two presents from each of them; and you were so sweet to prepare so many presents for me during that Christmas too.   I felt that I was the princess in your family.

You know I like your parents a lot?  I remembered that they invited me to have lunch at the hotel near the forest on the other day after the Christmas dinner.   After we finished our meals, your papa came over to my seat.  He stretched out his arm to me.  I had my arm around his and walked out the hotel to the car park.  He took care of each of my step out of the hotel.  He shown me the stairs.  I was so happy because that action looked like a father carry his daughter to walk down the  aisle of the church for her wedding.  How come your parents are so kind and gentle and so understanding?  I started loving them since then.

loves you and your parents much
SFT

Back again

Hey,

I was back again; to you again.  Do you know that I was very exciting before I flied to you?  It was about three and a half weeks after I left and I was back again.  As usual, you sent me a welcome card when I arrived.   

I was back to the blue room again.  I found there was a gift on the bed.  It was a big surprise!  You made the bed for me, you cleaned up the blue room and the wardrobe.  It was winter, you afraid I would feel cold at night.  Thus, you switched on the electric blanket half an hour before I go to bed.  You prepared everything for me, so well prepared.   You know that I fear to stay in dark place.  You told me to wake you up then you can accompany with me to WC at midnight.

On 25th of December, there was a tradition Christmas dinner at your parents home.  I was invited to join it.  It was the first time for me to meet your parents and brother.  I brought along with me presents for every one of you.  I hoped that all of you would like them.  What should I wear on that day?  Should I put on some makeup?  I was so nervous about that first meet.  So nervous……..

Yours
SFT

December 21, 2012

December 21, 2012.

I got on the plane again.  That was less than four weeks I returned home.  I was on my way to you again.  My heart pumped a lot when I was waiting for boarding and fly to you.

On the plane, I met a lady from China.  She was flying to meet her husband.  They did not meet each other for half year.  She was so excited for the meet; thus she kept asking me if she looked good on her outfit.   She asked me if I was going to meet someone over there.  "Boyfriend?"  She asked.  I replied her I was flying to meet you.  She told me a lot about her and her husband and also asked things about you and me.  I told her that we met for six months and visited each other for four times in person already.  She was surprised that we met so frequent and felt a little envy on us.  Haha, I could not stop smiling.   Were we meant to be together?  What would be set there in our life path?   

Yours big big

SFT

After home

Hey,

Since I got on the plane back home on December 1, 2012, I started missing you already.  When can we meet again??  Thanks for the technology nowadays; so that we can see each other every night after you off from work.  

I know that you rush home everyday after work for the FaceTime with me.  I can see your eager to talk to me after working for a whole day even we message and email each other a lot in the day time; me too, I wanted to see the lovely and sweet you.  You always sent me message by whatsapp.  Remember when you were here in June 2012?  You message me over 100 times in a day just for telling me that I am cute and sweet and you missed me.  You spoiled me so much by your sweet words.  How can I not loving you?

love you lots
yours SFT

Mijn Dagboek voor jou

Hey,

We went to the Christmas market to shop for those Christmas tree decoration and everything.  There were lots of lightening for the tree and they were so nice.  You said that you kept last year's decor stuff at mama and papa's place, so why not pick the stuff up there and start our tree building before I return home.

You were right, so many decor you kept at their house.   We built the tree together and you organized the lights, the decor balls, angles and stars.  I acted like a nurse who stay beside the doctor to hand over all the stuff you need.  That was the last whole day I stayed there.  The next day afternoon, I was on the plane to my home.  I knew it would be a while before I can see you again.  I put all the Christmas gifts I prepared for you under the tree and the secret dagboek was kept behind the tree at the very corner.

In that diary, I had all my feelings, my love, my days for you, my daring.

always yours
SFT

Hand in Hand

Hey,

We went to Den Haag on that windy day.  The beach was quiet in the winter and the shops were closed.  I still had that sore throat that I cannot swallow hard food.  You noticed that I felt pain, so you got me a cup of hot drinks in that windy winter.    

From the beach, we took the metro to Madurodam.   Remember how we missed each other?  When the metro came to the station, I was watching the poster on the metro station while you got on the metro without me.   You found out that I was standing still at the station with a helpless look while the metro departure from the station.  I got on the next metro and found that you were waiting for me at the next stop.  I off there and from that time, you held my little hand tightly with your big hand and you walked in front of me.  You had my little finger crossed to your little finger.  I looked at your back with my hand in your hand.  I told myself, that was the man I had been waiting for a long time.  I would follow him forever.  I will follow you, my dear.

yours
SFT

Happy Birthday

Hey,

It was November and the weather was getting cold.  I was sick just after I arrived there.   My throat felt so hurt, I cannot eat and cannot sleep.  You took care of me when I was there.  You cooked soup for me.  I have to recover quickly.

On my birthday, I woke up early because of the sore throat.  I found you not in the bedroom, so I walked down stair to the sitting room.   When I opened the door between the doorway and the sitting room, I had tears all in my eyes.  The sitting room was fully decorated with balloons and ribbons.  On the dining table, utensils were all setup and you walked from the kitchen with a big smile.  "Happy Birthday!", you said.  I cannot hold my tears and they ran down my face.  You kept singing the "Happy Birthday" song to me.  Whenever I wanted to cry, you said happy birthday to me during my trip.

On the dining table, there were many presents and the Sintaklass chocolates for me.  How sweet you were!    That was my birthday month, the sweetest and romantic birthday I had in my life.

November 2012

Hey,

The first time I visited you was in the November of 2012.  I remembered when I came out from the arrival hall, you were standing out there looking at me.  My heart pumped quicker and quicker when you approached me closer and closer.

After I arrived, you gave me surprise after surprise.  At first, I found the sweet welcome card with a little bag of chocolate on the seat of your car.  You were so considerate that you prepare snacks, drinks for me as you worried I would be thirsty and hungry after the 12 hours of flight.  On the way you drove me to your home, you held my left hand the whole journey.   You kept talking with me and making me laugh with you little jokes.

When I stared at you; I found that you were staring at me.  I know we were heart connected and mind connected too. 

connected with you
SFT

Looking forward

Hey,

I missed you so much; so I planned to visit you, the very first time to fly there to see you.  You said that you felt excited about my visit.  You have to be more excited because there would be more surprise to you when I arrive.  

I wanted to prepare Christmas gifts for you although I cannot stay till the Christmas time.  At least I know that I can put those gifts for you under the Christmas tree which will be set up before the Sintaklass day.  What would be the best gift for you?  I thought it over and over for many days.  Yes!  I know what I should prepare, a diary record from now to the day I finish the visit there; a diary full of my days, nights and feeling for you.  Hope you would understand my fall for you.

love you
SFT

p.s. SFT…how come you named me SFT?

Brown envelope

Hey,

When I arrived home after work, your little brown envelope was there on the table.   I am so familiar with your hand writing because you mailed me more and more cards after you returned home.  However, the brown envelope appeared the first time.

I wondered what was inside that little bubble bag but no clue at all.  It was interesting to find that it was a little bottle that we bought together at the stationery shop when you were still here.   The bottle was half full with the brown stuff.  Smiles came to my face because I know what that brown stuff was.  Those brown stuff was the sand you put in your pocket when we were walking along the beach during our trip across the boarder.   When you put them in your pocket, I asked you why.  You said that you wanted to keep them as a memory of the place.  Now, you sent half of them to me;  let me remember the time with you.

Silly you, how can I forget you, my lover.  I will never forget you.

love you lots

meego

Can of cream

Hey,

Remember where we went when you come here in September 2012?   I know it was a new place that you never visited.  I wanted to let you have a surprise of the place, so I arranged everything in secret.  Not until the last moment, you would not know about it.  You told me you enjoyed the stay there very much and I did enjoy the trip very much as well.  

I prepared everything including the hotel, transport for us and you prepared a lot of romantic things for the nights.  

We walked along the beach, took photos of the people there and also a little of ourselves.  We laughed at everything we saw which was funny.  After a day of walk, I was tired and you asked me to go for shower.  When I came out from the shower room, I found that the room was so dark because you switched off the lamps and only have little lights on.  Aha, that's the candles.  You lighted up those little candles around the bed!  And there were the red roses on the bed, haha, yes, they were plastic roses but still so romantic.  You ordered me to stand still at the door of the washroom and you came up to me.  You lift me up and held me tight to your body and to the bed.   I saw that there was a can of cream.  You knee down to me and opened the can of cream.  I looked into your gentle eyes when you dry my wet feet and gave me massage with the can of cream.   You said you noticed that I always have sour feet after work and so that's the cream for me to help me refresh after a long day of walking.  How sweet you were.  Since that time, I can't stop loving you, you know that?  You always ask me when is my favorite time with you.  That is one of my favorite time with you, my dear.   I want more nice time with you……

love you
meego

See you again

Hey,

It was to my surprise to hear that you planned to come and see me again two months later.    You just back home and already planned to come again?  I was extremely happy and looking forward to see you.

I know you love eating.  Although you have very special taste on food, I am sure I know what you want.   You told me you still have the visa to cross that boarder one more time.  Then, let's do it, crossing the boarder, find a relaxing place to stay and have our first trip together.   Everyday, we discussed on the trip, the place and the food we want to try.  I will plan a nice two days trip out of here for two of us.  I can do it, and I will do it.

It was so funny to know that you love that "cha leung", the rice roll with the fired dough inside, so much.  It definitely is a must food for every of your visit.  You always tell me that one day when I can make you the "cha leung", you will marry me.  You even push me to learn how to make it.   Were you giving me hint?   Lovely hint.  Please be patient, I will learn it for you.

Love you
meego

Cards from you

Hey,

I received your post card that you had posted at the Airport before your flight took off.  It was a surprise to receive it so soon after you flied.   

I treasured the card very much.  There were more surprise arrived my home in the coming week.  Know what it was?  That's your post cards again.  I received more than three cards from you in one week.  Your words were so sweet and shown how much you cared about me.  The cards were all very cute, piggy, rabbit, duckies, so many little animals.   I love them.

You know what, I used the beads you brought me to make a bracelet and necklace for myself.  They are so nice to wear with my summer dress.  I love them very much.  I miss hearing your voice; I miss seeing you.  When can I see you again?  When can I hear your voice again?  Now, we can only write to each other.  I wish I can use these words to show you my feeling.  

Love love
meego

When?

Hey,

You came here for two weeks to meet me.  Almost everyday, you gave me a gift, from that little pack of sweet to a big pair of soft indoor slipper.   Sweet guy, you prepared and brought so many things to me from that far away country.  Thank you.

It was almost time for you to go home which is about 9,000 miles away from me.   Our time together was lesser and lesser.    I didn't know if we can keep our just started relationship.  You have the faith to carry on this with me?   I understand long distance relationship is not easy for both of us.  You promised me you will keep contacting me and write to me.  You told me no need to worry and we will be ok.

On that night before you fly back the far away home, we cuddled together on the bench which is facing the harbor.   We said nothing and just cuddled under the big clear moon.   I wished that night would not end.

Love you
meego

Shrinking

Hey,

Night time again.  There are not too much stars tonight but the light from those far away apartments outside the window shining like stars.  It reminded me our first kiss.  

On that hot summer night, we walked along the park next to the hotel.  There were a lot of couples taking their pre-wedding photos.  We enjoyed the atmosphere with those getting married couples.  I can feel that you were looking at me when we passed by them.  You held my hand more and more tight.  You touched my hair, my back and then you bent forward to me and kissed on my lips.   A special feeling surrounded me.  I felt my heart was tightened.  You felt me so you stopped kissing me.  You said : "Why you are shrinking?"  I didn't know how to answer but I know when you touch me, kiss me, my heart shrink.  That's an amazing feeling.  I like it.  Please let me shrink again….

Love you

meego

Missing…….

Hey,

You went to Guangzhou for few days.   I missed you and I can feel that you were thinking of me and missing me.   Don't know why I can feel your heart and your mind.  When you came back, you told me when you thought of me, you knew that I was thinking of you too.  Is that the connection between us?  

I enjoyed this kind of feeling because I knew that you felt for me and at the same time I was too.    We went to the park at the island.  It is a relaxing place to go on a sunny day.  The park, the island, the bar, the beach are so nice and pretty.   Whenever we walked by those wedding advertisement, you asked me if I was giving you hint to marry me with a smile.  You knew I was not but you kept on asking the same question and gave me a funny face.   

Under that golden sunset, I put my head on your shoulder and you held my hands tightly to watch the sun went down and enjoyed the gentle wind till the stars were up up in the sky.

Love
meego

How come you are so sweet?

Hey,

Remember our first date?  It was a fantastic day.  We met at the station.  It was so easy to find you there because you are so tall and I was sure that you can't easily see me since I am so short.  However, when I walked closer and closer, you started to smile.  You saw me.  It was incredible that you can see me from the crowd.  

We went to the museum after the dim sum lunch.  I visited the museum many times before but that day was special to me.   You kept on sending me messages telling me that you were lucky to know me whenever I went to washroom or you went to buy drinks.  My mobile is full of messages from you in just one day.   I wanted to tell you that I was happy to meet you and it was my luck too.  

When the night was almost over, you walked me to the bus station.  You kissed on my forehead and said goodbye before you walked to your station.   My heart pumped a lot.  I wished that we can develop something more.   

Love you.
meego

Met you finally

Hey,  it was wonderful that we chat over the past few days.  You are so gentle and caring and funny.  It seems that we have so much in common.

I told you that I love looking up the sky and stare at the white clouds and blue sky and enjoying the wind touching my face.  You said that you enjoy sitting outside to experience the gentle wind and nice weather on a beautiful fine sunny day.

I always think that I am silly to walk with my head up or sometimes just stand in the middle of the road to feel the weather.  You said that you do the same sometimes.  Are we two idiots?  We finally meet.  Nice to meet you!