My giant

193cm is not common for an Asian but as a Caucasian.  You were my giant.  Whenever I looked at you, I had my head up all the time and you were my blue sky and sun.  

When I missed you, I looked up the sky.  Then I closed my eyes and felt the breezy wind on my face.  It was you touching my face and fiddle my hair gently like what you did when we met.  You bent your body towards me and gave me that soft kiss; then you stared at me.  Smile hung on my face because I felt your touch, sweet and love.  

I opened my eyes and you were not there.  How can it be?  You were here few minutes earlier and disappeared so quick.  Why you only show yourself when I closed my eyes?  Where was my sky and sun and the most important, my giant?

Little finger

There are more than one way to hold hands, especially between couples.   Many couples hold their hands in the simplest way and we had our own way.  Our pinkies entwining together when we held hands.  

There was an old Chinese fairy tale about the pinkies that an invisible red string of fate connect two people together and fall in love.   That was the fate for the two to meet in this life, the destiny.  

At the very beginning, we held hands with all our fingers crossed together.   Somehow there was one day, our fingers did not crossed together but our pinkies did.   You moved my little finger to entwine with yours once you grabbed my hand.  It looked like we were making promise all the time.  Was the red string of fate there between us?  Were you making promise with me?  What was that promise?  I wished the string never broke.

Risk loving

According to the investment psychology, a risk loving person willing to take risk when the expected return is low.  I think I will consider myself risk loving.

I found the scratch card in Holland was interesting because the design was always cute.  As a risk loving person, I liked playing it with you.   You never scratched those lottery cards before you knew me and you found that I was silly to try to get that lottery prize because the possibilities of winning was low.

One day, I received a mail from you.  It was the one month scratch card, the Christmas one.  Amazing, I loved it.   You told me we scratched it every night when we were doing the FaceTime chat.  How sweet you were to find that activity which we can do together.   Sometimes, I screamed for the luck to get two in a kind of image on the card.   You smiled and asked me softly "How many images we need more to win the smallest prize?"  I showed you the card and told you, we need one more image.   You had that gentle smile again and said "Ja ja.".   You never thought that we would win anything big.  It was fine with me because I enjoyed scratching it with you together.  

This scratch card was the count down calendar for my working holiday.   When the scratch card was used up, that was the time I can see you again.  I wanted to fly to you and squeeze into your arms;  lay on your chest to smell you and feel your heart beat; synchronize my heart beat with yours.  I wanted to scratch it all over in one time!  You were my prize.

Pick me up

Whenever you were here, you pick me up when you were free.  No matter it was the breakfast, lunch or dinner time, you met me near my office.  Sometimes you waited me near the parking area and most of the time you waited in the coffee shop, PC, downstair.  

In the morning, you liked to go for your favorite "cha leung" at the congee shop near by for breakfast.   In the evening, you went to the coffee shop for your earl grey tea while reading news from your iPad and waiting for me.  When I walked down the escalator, I can see you through the window of the coffee shop.  You were concentrated on your reading.   What a guy.

I missed you so much after you returned home.  We kept our communication by messaging daily.  Those messaging could not cure my "love sick".  Sometimes, you asked me if I have plan after work.  On the days that I was free, you said to me "Let's meet at PC when you are off, ok?  at the same time?"  Did you ever know that your words touched me so much?  I cried every time you said that because I missed you so much.  The more you said these, the more I missed you.   Will one day we meet at PC at the same time again when I am off?

Smell

You had a special smell that I liked a lot.  Your smell gave me a fresh, sunshine like feeling.  You smell like mint and green.  That was why I wanted to squeeze in the same sofa with you.   That was why I loved to cuddle with you, walk by your side.  I wanted to smell you.  The cologne and all the toiletries you used were with the same smell.  I tried to put on things in the smell as you.  

It was so easy to notice you were around. When I am walking on the street I try to find your smell, your back.  When you were sleeping, I lay besides you and try to smell you.  When you were home, I followed you around.  When you were doing the laundry, I tried to help as to be close to you.  When you were in the bedroom, I stayed in your room and cuddle with you.   I just wanted to smell you.  

Today, the familiar smell was around me but that was not you.  Where are you now?

Destiny

We had been connected for long.   When we were apart, I can feel you.   I can feel your worry, pain, excitement and happiness.  You believed in past life and karma.  You said that we knew from the past life; that was why you can open to me so easily and feel comfortable when with me.  That was our destiny to meet in this life and we would meet again in the coming life.  

I believed in you because I felt that we were made to meet and be together.  There were so many things indicated that I was made to know you.  I never told you that some of the people I knew before you, the things I encountered before I knew you, all linked to the low land, to the garden of the world.   Thus, when I met you, I knew that my path was towards the beautiful country near the sea.

You always worry about me if I might feel boring and lonely when you go to work.  You were silly, my dear.  There were so many things I can do in the house and during a day.  I can do the cleaning, cooking, learning Dutch, visiting your parents daily.  I even can do my photography and painting.  There were a lot of things I can do.  

Sometimes, I dreamed about having our family, our kids, our house, our future.  I planned how to build the garden; how to decorate our house, and how my days would be in that little wooden house.  I promised I would be ok.  I do not mind if there were some alone time, as long as I can stay with you, hug by you, cuddle with you, lay in bed with you.  I was always waiting for your kisses and touch to let me shrink……

Dragon

Hey,

You are a fan of dragon, the Chinese dragon because this creature looks so spectacular and attractive to you.  I cannot find many things in dragon shape in your house but I noticed that you tried to collect things that have relation to it.  

One day, I walked around in a shopping mall.  There was a special booth which was doing a small old times exhibition and some of them were for selling.  I looked around and suddenly I was attracted by a hanger that was made with copper.  That was a copper dragon hanger.   It looked so nice.   I asked the sales assistant if he knew the story about that hanger.  

He told me that dragon hanger was from 20th century.  An English man found it in China and he brought it to Ireland.   After some years, a Holland guy found the dragon hanger and bought it.  Since that time, the hanger was kept in the low land.   The booth owner liked this hanger and so he purchased it and get it in the booth for selling.   I thought that you would like it, thus, I bought it as your Christmas gift of 2013.  

I felt that it was interesting because the hanger was first appeared in China and arrived Holland after some times.  Later on, it was brought here and I carried it back to Holland.  Seemed that it was the destiny of the dragon to stay in the low land.  Was this also my destiny to link to the garden of the world?

Dragon was lay on the shelf of your home.  You said that you will find a place that you can hang it.   Did you find that suitable place?  Or you have forgotten it already?  Or you found it not attractive?

forever

SFT 

Fell

The music was on; you were singing while reading magazine; I was laying in bed facing the window.   It was a quiet morning.  Suddenly, I heard a "pump"!  I turned my head around and found you lay on the floor.  You fell from the spinning bike; you were not moving; you stayed still there.   Oh my god!  

I wanted to help you.  There was a second I thought if you cannot breath or lost your conscious what I should do.  You told me not to move you and let you stay there for a while with your weak voice.  I could do nothing; I could help nothing.  Looking at you with my worry eyes were the only thing I can do.   I saw you can hardly breath and you closed your eyes tightly.   After a while, your breath came back a little.  I came closer to you and help you to breath more.  I hug you and hug you.  You stayed there with my arms around you.  I cannot hold the whole of you but I tried my best.   

We did not move for a while and the music was still on.   You were not singing but breathing weakly and constantly.   You rest in me arms and told me do not worry because you felt better and better.  It was a long while before you can stand up and we put your big body to the bed.  We lay there together again. 

Cycling

Hey,

You do not like people watching you to do your exercise.   Sometimes, I was too sleepy that I didn't want to wake up.   I forced you to let me lay in bed.  You pushed me to face the window when you were cycling in the room.   At first, I did what you asked me to, have my back facing you.  

Music was on, you were singing and the spinning bike was running in the early morning.   I turned my head and peeped on you.  You were reading the magazine while you were cycling.  You caught me looking at you.  I immediately turned my head to face the window again.  After few minutes, I peeped on you again.  You caught me again and told me to turn around with your warm smile.  I ignored your request and kept looking at you.  You were embarrassed.   I didn't want you feel more embarrassing, I turned my back back.

I did the same on every single day.   The more I did it, the more you used to what I did.  Finally, I didn't need to turn my back when you were cycling.  There was one day you wrote me that you missed the time.  You found yourself have no energy to do the exercise because I was not there accompany with you when you were doing exercise; me too, me too, I missed looking at you with the music on while you were singing with the sound from the spinning bike.

Loves

SFT

Working holiday

Hey,

Every time when I had to fly home, I felt sad because it meant that we could not stay together for a while.  Don't know since when we named that staying apart as my working holiday.  I loved your ideas of working holiday because it made me have big desire of seeing you.  It made me always exciting during the count down time.  

When we booked our tickets for the next meet, we started the working holiday count down.  You told me that it was only a short period of time.  You told me that I stayed here to feel the life here and used my eyes to see everything here for you.  

I experienced things here and you did the same there.  We exchanged when we were together again.   We shared the new places we never visited; food that we never tried; shops that we both find interesting; all new things for us.  Usually that working holiday took about two to three months before we can meet.  Then, how long is that working holiday I am having now?  or the working holiday is already over?  am I having a permanent job here?  

still yours?

SFT

Candles

Hey,

You used to light up candles in the house at night, small one, big one, white one and red one, electric one and the real one.  In that little house, it was lighten up by all the candles almost every night.  Sometimes, we tried to make it more romantic and relaxing by set up the tea, snacks, chocolates after dinner.  Then we can cuddle together in the sofa and watched our favorite TV.  We enjoyed the lovely time very much.

The candles light up the house and also light up our hearts to feel the close of each other.   It seemed that there were only you and me in this earth.  

That is a night without star.  I can only see the dark.  Where is the moon?  Where is the star?   And the most important, where are you?

alway yours
SFT

Two years

Hey,

Someone says:

There is always one special year that one would be very emotional and experience the most bitter, sweetest, hard, and unforgettable feelings in one's life.  Mine was the year from 2012 to 2014; yes, that's about two years.

I experienced a lot of things during these two years; all of my happiness were come from you.  Do you know there are too many things that would remind me of you?  No matter where I am going, what I am eating, what I am doing, you were there with me, in my mind.  When I was in Europe, I thought of you; when your birthday came, I thought of you; when you were traveling, I thought of you.  

We had visited some places together; we planned to visit more places with snow and that we would enjoy much; we enjoyed a lot of different types of food.   We shared our times when we traveled alone with the FaceTime, photo stream, emails, post cards, so many channels we used for our connection.  I missed all of those time.   You were always in my mind.   

SFT

Harmony

Hoi,

You are a music lover.  It seems that you cannot live without music.  No matter where you are, you try to play music from all your devices, your iPad, your HiFi, your car audio player, what ever you can use for music playing.  

I loved to sit next to you and listened to those music you played.   We had similar taste on music and we introduced some new things into each other's music world too.  It was always so relaxing to sit in your car and listen to the music played from the audio box.  You followed the music and sang too.   I looked at you when you sang and I can see you had the enjoyable look and happy smile hang on your face.  Sometimes, when you were singing, you turned to face me and gave me those funny face which would made me laugh.  You are such a kid.  I loved that lovely kid.

love you lots

SFT

The little one

Hey,

It was nice that we sometimes discussed on our future life.  You asked me if I willing to have baby with you when we lived together.  Of course I willing to, you silly.  I wanted to have our babies.   You said that you loved baby girls more and I was fine with both.

However I worried that I cannot carry baby for you because of my age and health.  I did not have good health and may cause problems if I carry baby.  You worried about my health too, thus you said if we cannot have our own, we can try to adopt a baby girl from China.  You did not want me to suffer from that baby carrying.  "Why baby girl from China?" I asked.   "It let our family looks more better as you are Chinese and I am White.   Unless you want a black baby?"  You thought about that already?  You sure you want to build a family with me?  If I can, I prefer to have our own little one.

loves you always

SFT

iPad Mini

Hoi,

When the first iPad Mini was launched, we ordered two.  One was for you and one was for me.  That device was the bridge between us and it just like our kid.  Since then, we watered and fertilized our relationship with the aids of that little machine.

We chatted via the FaceTime almost every night; we shared our photos with the photo streaming; you shared your favorite songs and TV series to me.  I kept all of them in this little tablet.  You said that with those videos, songs and TV series, I would not feel boring and could have something to do when on the plane.   You were so silly.  I told you many times, I can sleep like a pig whenever and wherever I am.   

When we met, we watched most of the media together and among those, that American comedy about the four friends in New York and their love stories was our favorite.   On many nice sunny afternoon and quiet relaxing nights, we cuddled together in your black sofa and watched the program.  I told myself that I would not watch this comedy if you were not around;  and I would not share anything in that little tablet to anybody except you because that one was our baby.

forever yours

SFT

Home

Hey,

How's your day?  Still live in the little wooden two floors stylish home that you have been living for 14 years?  You complained the house a lot, too much insects in the summer time.  You prefered an apartment than a house because you were tired of cleaning the house and the garden alone.   You talked a lot of having our own apartment with a big balcony that we can sit and cuddle on a nice weather day.

You know, I do not mind where we live.  No matter it was a little wooden house or a big traditional European house, the most important thing was I can stay with you and besides you.  I didn't mind to take care of your garden and your house.  Sometimes I have the blueprint of your garden in my mind; to put some green on the path side and some flowers next to the green.

On one fine day, we visited your parents and you showed me the entire house.  It was a real traditional European home.  I never went upstair before.  You guided me to upstairs and showed me the rooms.  We dreamed living in mama's house.   We would have the bedroom refurnishing and the big wardrobe full of my clothes and shoes.   You showed me the two hobby rooms, one for you and one for me.  We can have our own private time and space.   You said when it is the time, one of our hobby rooms would be the kids' room.  We would have our own baby?   Were you serious?

yours

SFT

Hide and Seek

Hey,

Whenever I sat in your car, I liked to sit back and had my head up to look through the car roof window.  The sky was so blue and clear with white clouds.   You told me that I was interesting because I was a girl who loved to look up the sky.

When you were driving, you had your right hand holding my left hand.  You controlled everything inside the car with your other hand.  You never wanted to let me go.  I knew sometimes you were looking at me when we were on the highway.  When I looked at you, you immediately turned your eyes away.  Sometimes I caught you looking at me, then you gave me a big smile and said "what?".  I liked to peep on you secretly while you concentrated on the drove.  You noticed that I was looking at you, you whispered me "what?".  You held up my little hand and kissed on it.  The kiss was so soft and gentle.  I smiled with a satisfy look.  That was our eyes "hide and seek".  Your big hand was so warm and soft that I wished it can hold mine forever.

always yours

SFT

Cuddle

Hoi,

We loved cuddle.  No matter it was in the morning, afternoon or at night, we cuddle a lot.   You love to lay on the sofa and watch the TV programs and I loved to squeeze into your seat.   Sometimes, we squeezed together and enjoyed the lovely quiet time in that little wooden house while watching our favorite series.   

There were a lot of times, I lay on your chest with your arms hug around me from behind.  We always lay there this way and I enjoyed it very much.  Do you know that I felt that I was blessed?  I easily fell asleep on your chest and when you found that I was sleeping, you whispered me softly and asked "babe, let's go to bed for some sleep, ok?"  But I preferred to stay in that position and lay on your chest to feel your heart.  I love to put my ear on your chest listening your heart beat.   It was the amazing time to me because in that way I felt that we were more close and our heart beat were with the same rhythm and speed.   We were connected no matter where we were and how far we were apart.

always yours

SFT

Good Morning

Good Morning dear,

You are an early bird, my early bird.  Everyday, you wake up before 6am, even it is weekend.   Sometimes when I woke up, you were still sleeping.   I didn't wanna disturb you because whenever I was there, at the first two nights, you never had good sleep as you worried about me if I have enough sleep when away from my own home.  

I always looked at you when you fell asleep;  you look like a kid.  Your slim lips closed tightly; with your big nose and big round head, you are so lovely.   When your auto music alarm started the music, you opened your eyes and looked at me.  You smiled and hug me closed to you.  We cuddled together so often.  I like the way you hug and cuddle with me.  That cuddle always started from the dawn to the sky became bright.  You asked me when was my best time with you on a day. That was, it was my favorite moment of everyday with you.

yours,

SFT

24Kitchen

Hoi,

I love to watch "24Kitchen" channel there.  It is a channel full of cooking programs.  You told me that one of the programs of Rudolph van Veen which is about pastry and cakes making and is your favorite one.  We sometimes cuddled in the sofa and watched together on weekend afternoon.   

Do you know why I love to watch this channel and especially programs of Rudolph van Veen?  It is because I can learn some Dutch cooking and at the same time, I can train my ears to listen the local Dutch people speaking and familiar to the speed and tone.   I am sure I can learn Dutch more quick by watching these programs.  When I returned home, I watched the channel sometimes before I go to sleep.  You know what, I also listen the Dutch radio programs.  When do you think I can speak Dutch and understand it more better and quicker?

always yours

SFT

Ik hou van jou

Hey,

When I was there, you were the translator between your parents and me.  I wanted to talk with them myself but I cannot do it.   Since I returned home after the 2013 New Year's holiday over there, I started learning little by little of the Dutch words.  It was not an easy thing for me.  There are no language school teaching Dutch here and not even have language books from the bookshop.  The only source of Dutch that I can find is all from the internet.  

My first Dutch phase was taught by you : Ik hou van jou (I love you).  It is the most easy phase among all other Dutch words / phases because I can remember it very easy as I wrote those words to you on every my emails and also I can read these words on every of your emails.

Then, I learnt a longer way of expression of that feeling : Ik heel veel hou van jou (I love you very much).  Haha, can you feel my feeling for you?

always your

SFT

Dessert

Hey,

Why do people like to have dessert after meals?  Many people say that without dessert, the meal is not completed.  You told me that's true to you and dessert is a must after dinner.  When at home, you always have vla as dessert when I didn't make you anything. 

When you were here, we always went to the dessert shop "Honey Moon" which is near your favorite hotel.  The first time we went there, you wanted the mango mousse pudding.  I asked if you ever tried the "sticky balls".  You agreed to try despite that you are not  dare to try new things.  Haha, "sticky balls" that was the name I made up because I don't know the exact name in English.   After you tried it with me, it become your favorite Chinese dessert.   Sometimes. when at home, you asked for "sticky balls" as dessert after dinner.  Then I started making it and I showed you how to do it.  Thus, you can enjoy it when I was not there.

Do you know how to do it now?  Do you try to do it sometimes?  

forever

SFT

Papa in Holland, I always love you

Hey,

I remember the first time I saw your papa, he was sitting on the red sofa at the warm and classic decorated home.  Every time I saw him, he was smiling.  When he smiled, his eyes became a line and in a new moon shape.  With his big tummy and smiling eyes, I can see his gentle love for everyone around him.  He tried his best to listen to other's talk because both of his ears cannot hear even he wore the hearing aids. He paid much attention to others lips and tried hard to understand what was going on around him.  

I always sit next to papa and when his cup or dish were empty, I asked him if he need some more.  He  always showed me his lovely smile.  Sometimes he shake his egg-like shape head and said he need no more; sometimes, he node and asked for more coffee.  You told me, papa likes me a lot because I am the one who willing to pay attention to him and always look at him and tried to talk with him when everyone was busy with their own things.  You know it is because I love him from heart since the first time he walked me out from the restaurant like my own father.  

He always there sitting on the sofa and look at me and with his gentle look.   You also told me whenever I invited him to dine out, he never rejected.  But every time you invited him out, papa always rejected your invitation.  When we dine out, he always show us he enjoyed the meals and the meet a lot.  Every time when I had to leave and return home, he greeted me goodbye with his both hands holding my face and said 'I always think of you' and hug me tightly.  I will always miss him.  That's the love I can give him.

Papa there, I always miss you and always love you.  

SFT

What does LOVE means?

Hey,

What is LOVE?  umm….what let a person in love with another individual?  

When you are in love, the hormone inside you changed.  Many people say that whenever you eat chocolate, you have the same feeling similar to as in love.  I tried myself and it is true to me.   

Every time before my flight, you bought chocolate beans from that tea shop in town where we found your favorite tea.  Was that the reason you always bought me chocolates and let me bring home?  You want me still can feel the love between us, so you let me have lots of chocolate home?   

I want to taste the love more, eat more chocolates?

always yours

SFT

Honey moon period of Love

Hey,

Do you know how long is the honey moon period of love?  I ever looked up the internet and there are a lot of different theories.   Some say that it last for few months, some say it can last for one to two years. The main point is whether the spark of love can be maintained for a long time.  How can we maintain the fire between us?  

I had talked with R and M about this.  We shared what we ever did and would do for our another half.  We have some common idea which is the three of us all love to give our partners surprise by preparing little gifts when unexpected and those gifts are usually handmade.  

You ever told me that my little diary is the most sweet and touching gift that you had ever received.  And also you are appreciate of the little "IOU"coupon with which I would perform whatever I have written on the coupon.   There was one day, you gave me a coupon from that little book and asked for a kiss on your forehead.  That was my pleasure to do it.  Want something more?  Look up the coupon and find it out, ok?

yours

SFT

Papa and Mama

Hey,

You know you have very kind and nice parents?  Since the first time I met them, I cannot stop loving them.

On the first gathering with your parents, I felt that your papa was a gentleman and a kind person and mama was a traditional mother with a kind heart.  Both of them treated me so good and they always hug me tight to them.   Mama said that I was born at the same year as your passed away sister.   I can see her caring for me from her eyes.

I remembered you have a little photo books from your babyhood till you were grown up.  Your papa was in a lot of the photos.  He was a big guy with big smile all the time.  I ever asked you about your parents story, you told me you don't know.  Thus, I asked mama.  Mama told me a romantic story about her and papa.  I envy about their love which is so gentle and sweet.  Till now, I still can see the love between them.  When they looked at each other, I can see the care and love shining in their eyes.  I hoped they love can live forever.

love

SFT

Coupon couple

Hey,

Remember the term "coupon couples"?  That's the joke she made on us, so funny.  And in a way, this term is good enough to describe us in the past.  

Whenever you came over to visit me or I flied to you, both of us tried our best to search for good deals coupon; from the very nice restaurant to the normal high tea set offer; from the cross board ferry tickets to the good and cheap hotel voucher.

Do you know, I am not really a coupon person because the deals here are not always good enough for purchase.  However, I know that you spent a lot when you were here.  I had to find those good deals for us.   I hoped you didn't mind.  Now, I stopped the searching because I know that you won't visit here. 

always your

SFT

Dim Sum

Hey,

Do you still go for the dim sum these days?  Before we had our first dim sum lunch in Netherlands, you told me dim sum there was not tasty and way too expensive.  However, it was the lunch meeting with my auntie and uncle over there.  So you said never mind, just go and have that meal.  We ordered a lot of food and after three dishes, we were full while auntie and uncle was still half full only.  We looked at each other with a surprise look.  

Auntie asked me what you like to have for lunch.  I replied that you love 'cha leung', haha. the fried dough rolled with the steamed rice sheets.  It is a must order dish in any dim sum restaurant.  When we back home, you told me you never knew the dim sum was so good there.  Then you spoke softly to my ear, "one day when you can make me that 'cha leung', I will marry you."  But at this moment, I still cannot make you that 'cha leung'.  Do you still want me to learn?

loves

SFT

FaceTime

Dear,

Back home and it was time to have our FaceTime again.  I saw you from the little screen of my iPad mini while you were using your big screen iPad.  It was nice to see you every night. 

You asked me why every time you see me with that webcam, I was smiling all the time.  Didn't you know that it was you who make me smile and always happy here?  Whenever I saw you, I cannot help to have that smile hang on my face.  I smiled and then you smiled too.  We didn't need too much talk but just looking at each other through the screen and smile.  I already felt that we were connected.  Did you feel the same?  We acted like kids and asked each other "what?" and "what?" with those sweet smiles.   I had good sleep after every FaceTime with you.  I can sleep like a pig as you know and every morning I wake up with full energy because I knew that you were there for me again when you wake up six hours later.  I was always waiting for you with my smiles.

yours lovely

SFT

December 31, 2012

My dear,

That was my first new year eve celebration with you.  We got up early on that day and went to the supermarket for all the preparation for the new year eve's dinner and snacks for that night.  You told me a lot of people buy the fireworks for that special day.  You prepared a small one for me, the two sticks for kids but I loved it.  We lighted them in your garden in the evening.  It was a nice evening.

I know you are picky on food but I also know what you love to eat and your taste.  After the dinner, we watched some movies when we cuddled in the sofa.  Almost the midnight time, you switched on all your devices to show the real time webcam of those popular cities in the world to see the fireworks show on those cities.  You held me tight to you and we enjoyed those snacks and sparkling juice while waiting for the fireworks started in Amsterdam.  We kissed each other when the clock clicked twelve.  

At that time, a lot of the people live near your neighborhoods went out their home and fired the fireworks.  It was amazing.  We were in the middle of the fireworks.  I was exciting to see those fireworks so close to us.  We went up to the bed room and watched them from the big window.  I had tears in my eyes.  I am sure I won't forget this moment of us in our first year. 

still loving you
SFT